Child wellness visits, how I hate thee. Getting the kids out of the house only to wait, and wait, and wait to see the doctor for what seems like a pointless Dr's visit is never my favorite way to spend an afternoon, but twice now my daughters' Doctor has caught something at these routine visits, that I never would have known as a mother that needed attention. Praise God! But, let's be honest when something isn't normal it's scary, and right now I'm in the scary not knowing stage with my youngest as we await more tests.
Yesterday, the doctor was concerned about Felicity's head measurements and has ordered ultrasounds. She could have hydrocephalus which is very scary to think about and process or she could just have a genetic disorder which in layman's terms is called "Abnormally Large Head." Oy, hopefully we'll be making jokes in a week about my husband's head size and her head size rather than talking to a neurosurgeon, but we won't know until after an ultrasound which way things will go.
My oldest daughter had a similar visit with the doctor at her 4 month wellness checkup when it was discovered she had hip dysplasia, again we wouldn't know the course of treatment until after a round of ultrasounds and speaking with a specialist. The waiting was the most nerve racking part, not knowing whether her condition could just be treated with a harness or if surgery would be in her near future.
Not knowing, waiting, not knowing, waiting, not knowing waiting.
Even if the diagnosis isn't scary, even if it is manageable, even if it doesn't mean future learning and functioning problems, even if it doesn't mean the need for brain surgery, right now I don't know and it eats at my very core not knowing.
When something isn't right with our children there's not much we can do but wait, and right now I'm waiting upon the Lord, I couldn't imagine putting my hope in anything else.
"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Isaiah 40:31
Any prayer would certainly be appreciated
Oh by the way 7/27 is the last day to enter into my Modest Swimsuit Giveaway and We still have very low entries : )